I keep getting told how busy I am – the inference being that it’s a bad thing.
And sometimes it can be… and… mostly, right now, I feel lucky that I’m choosing busy. My exact design of busy.
I am choosing to study – and I love it. I really love learning. My Wednesday mornings spent studying (group calls, reading, audios, notes) are such a joy. Me. My (newly tidied) desk. My view out the window. Devouring knowledge. What a luxury.
I choose to work at Imagination (part time, a definite choice on my part, out here) – and I enjoy the people, the conversations, the ability to provide a space for options and discussions and thoughts and … well, just a space for people to breathe.
I choose to coach bright, sparkling individuals – more conversations, which lift me up, make me feel lighter and buoyed by all that is possible in this world… The chance to be a mirror to all their talents and gifts and value. This is a real honour – that literally feeds my soul (quite possibly more than it does theirs… but I hope not…)
I choose to go boxing. Michele Aboro at Aboro Academy is not only an undefeated world champion, a Londoner, and a resident of Shanghai – she also makes me laugh more than anyone else I know could at 7am in the morning! Her classes make me ache SO much… and yet the sense of pride they bring out in me, when I can still walk the next day… they keep me coming back…
I choose to run and to cross train and to cycle and to move this body of mine every day (ok – most days) for at least a little bit. And I’ve learnt (thanks to my 100 day challenge) that this is not a chore. It gives me space. It lets me burn off and work out and process all sorts of thoughts and issues and ‘stuff’ that would otherwise consume my brain. Sometimes on my own. Sometimes with others. Both are useful.
And all these choices support the day to day running around that I do in honour of the little people and their schedules. Football, choir, netball, craft, swimming…
Yes, I am frequently rushing (cycling, mostly) from a to b to c and back to b (again and again and again) AND…. this is the choosing busy that makes me smile and feel grateful.
I know how lucky I am to have been able to create this life that I love out here in Shanghai. It keeps me in action. It is rarely static. And there is always a ‘balance’ to be moving towards…
And sometimes, I get to choose stopping. Sitting. Reading. A cup of tea with a friend. An evening on the sofa (currently chomping my way through This Is Us – which I love!). Or today… a massage at Dragonfly… a short cycle ride down the road…
It’s not overwhelm.
This is the choosing busy that makes me feel alive. My choices. Changing all the time.