Maybe leaning in is actually about being honest – being brave enough to be honest. Maybe it’s about stopping feeling like I have to ‘do-it-all’ because, actually, I’ve realised that I don’t want to – and that doesn’t make me a failure.
Maybe being honest could be about making me and other people happier? Maybe I could say that I didn’t want the management position office job. That it wasn’t all it was cracked up to be. Maybe I could say that I wanted to be my own boss. That I wanted to help other people, to little by little make the world a nicer place for the individual people in it?
Maybe I could say that for me – leaning in, is about leaning in to me – and my honest desires? To creating something that I’m proud of. To creating something small, and beautiful, and meaningful – even if it’s not based around 40hrs a week in an office.
Maybe being honest is just about saying no. No, I do not want this anymore. I did want it. And I used to enjoy it. And I’ve had some great times. But not so much now. So, no… I have changed. And so for me now, to move along into the next stage of me – I need to say no to a whole pile of stuff that I thought I had to say yes to.
But I don’t. I can be brave. And by being brave, I am being honest.